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Sun Apr 27, 2008, 7:14 AM
  • Mood: Angsty
Oh boy, kill me now.


I can't stand this censoring of my speech/thoughts anymore.


I have to be SO careful what I say around my grandma.


Such as, no more mediocre curse words, like "crap" and "dangit".


I can't play my music around her.


I'm afraid to wear my Tripps around her.


I can't tell her anything that I like...or ANYTHING.


I can't even play with my gay Sims around her! I can only play with my straight couple, and for some reason they hate eachother and won't do the naughty like the gay couple. ;-;


...UGH, IT'S JUST SO ANNOYING.


And yesterday, somehow the topic of church came up, and she was like, "Why don't ya'll go to church?"

I was like, oh shit "Because we're lazy."

My dad said something about us being heathens or something and they laughed and I'm just sitting there like, why the hell does it matter? because church never did anything for me except make me a god-fearing Christian who was so closed minded, I would think Jeffree Star was Satan and Frank and Gee were his minions here to spread evil upon the world and bring forth the beginning of the Apocalypse!


...Long run-on sentence is long.



Ffjdslfjdl s Raggle Fraggle.



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I need to talk to Savannah about going to see her therapist.


These nightmares are getting worse...and more disturbing.


I-I swear, it's like watching a Quentin Tarantino film...but 10000000000 times worse.


Yeah. That bad.


The images still haunt me.


Last night, I literally pissed myself out of utter fear and terror.


e_e...why me?




</end boring life rant>


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Therapists are great. . . . if you find the right one. And think about a psychiatrist too, they can prescribe a medicine that will help you sleep better.

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Breathe.
You know, I've offered several times, if you want someone to talk to. The offer still stands.

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"Half my Kingdom it is then." -Silas 'Kings'
Good idea.

I really need some sleeping pills. These nightmares have me afraid to even close my eyes. x.o

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Caution! Police Line You Better Not Cross!
Is the cop or am I the one who's really dangerous?
I used to have horrible dreams about the Apocalypse. One of the things I remember helping me was talking the dreams through with someone and having them point out what was silly or outlandish about the dream so I realized that the dream wasn't so scary after all.

My mantra is "this, too, shall pass" - it's really helped me through some rough times. Repeating something calming like that over and over again before you go to sleep, or even just once, might help. There are a lot of ways out there to help; the only thing you can really do is try some methods and see if they help.


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Breathe.
that's effed up.

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Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,:lick:You should've raised a baby girl,:phae:
should've been a better son.:sasso: If you could coddle the infection:puke: They can amputate at once.:chainsaw:
wow. my grandparents are like that too. its so irritating.

I used to have nightmares like that. but now they are just normal. I tend to hug one of my stuffed animals when things get a little too 'real' for my liking.

definitely therapist-time.

it is possible to creep out a therapist. one of my ex-friends managed to do so on a dare. </random>
im lucky my grandma is the opposite of religious and for her no word is left unsaid ...but me mum aint...

:hug: is ur grandma only vistin? or stayin?

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'I've been eating speed for the last three days and everytime i close my eyes i see centipedes'The seance...
the centipedes are marching...
to the baby elephant walk!!! :O_o:
Therapy is a good option when you get to this point. My parents thought at first it was an attitude problem and didn't think that much about it. Then when I started seeing a psychiatrist and a pychologist, I was diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar Disorder. I have a lot of problems with severe anxiety too. It's a good idea to get help when you can (and when your parents will pay for it XD) before it really starts to get out of control. The medicine isn't as bad as it seems. It can really make a difference once you get the right dose and combination.
Pets and stuffed animals make good therapists too. They listen, they don't judge, and they comfort. Lucky's probably the best therapist I've ever seen ;D And if you feel like you're really going to commit suicide, GET HELP. This site has a lot of useful information and links. [link]

Wow. I'm glad my grandparents aren't like that. My mom's parents are Jewish and regularly cuss in front of me and don't mind if I cuss back. My dad's parents parents are Christian but aren't all religiousy Catholic "YOU MUST GO TO CHRUCH EVERY FUCKING SUNDAY" either. How much longer is she staying?

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“The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated." - Mahatma Gandhi

I support animal welfare, not animal rights!
You know i'm here. I can recommend my therapist, she is quite amazing.

It's good to get your opinions out in the open.

I'm here.

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"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction"
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